getting prepared.

my psychologist just left my place. i called my care coodinator when my ics worker was here yesterday and zen helped me fill out an application for some housing assistance company yesterday and they said i needed a referral from a doctor saying i'm disabled/handicapped and i need accomodations for the apartment in massachusetts. so i called my care coordinator and left him a message asking for my primary care doctor's number because i need accomodations for my apartment there and to verify that i'm handicapped, with a brain injury. i didn't get any response from him yet today, so i called my case manager and found out my primary care doctor's number and called them before my psychologist came today and asked them if they could have my primary care doctor write a note saying i'm disabled with a traumatic brain injury, so i need accomodations in the apartment, at first they wanted to fax my doctor and i couldn't find a fax number for the primary care doctor and then they asked if i could find a mailing address for my primary care doctor and i found the address but i just remembered something- i don't remember if i specified which primary care doctor it was exactly. hopefully i told them. then my psychologist came and we had a conversation about how my mom and amanda don't provide me with any support whatsoever. we talked about how they were only supportive of me when it came to going to the courage center and i'm DONE going there- the car accident that i was involved in was OVER TWENTY FOUR FUCKIN YEARS AGO. my psychologist agreed with my frustration. i said, "THERE'S STAGES WHEN IT COMES TO REHABILITATION AND IT SEEMS LIKE THEY WANT ME TO STAY IN THE STAGE WHERE I ATTEND THE COURAGE CENTER JUST SO THEY ACTUALLY APPEAR CARING AND SUPPORTIVE WHEN THEY'RE NOT BEING ANY OF THOSE THINGS, TRYING TO KEEP ME IN THE SAME PLACE MY WHOLE FUCKING LIFE. THIS IS WHERE THE LACK OF EMPATHY PART COMES IN- HOW WOULD THEY LIKE THEIR PROGRESS AND EVERYTHING THEY'VE DONE IN LIFE JUST TO GET WHERE THEY ARE COMPLETELY DISREGARDED AND IGNORED?! THEY WOULDN'T FUCKIN LIKE IT." my psychologist agreed with me and said there should be a program that deals with patients when they just get out of rehabilitation like i am. i think the stupid courage center might have a program for that but no one conveniently told me about it because they wanted to keep making money off me going to their easy ass therapy.
before my psychologist came, my job coach came and had the 60-day evaluation meeting with her supervisor. i told him about the interview i just had last week and how the lady seemed interested in hiring me because she asked me where i lived and was asking me questions that i told her i was qualified with and she said she'd get back to me today if i got the job. then i asked if i should call them to see and she said the day wasn't over yet, i should wait. then while my job coach and her supervisor were talking to each other, my job coach brought up an idea of how i could get someone else to work with me because they probably have other methods and one of her other clients did this with her and ended up getting hired for some job the first week with the other job coach. i'm open to suggestions as long as it'll help me get employed, so i agreed with the idea. so i'm hopefully starting to get my ducks in a row for housing and a new job. i'm NOT going back or staying in the same place in my life. THAT'S NOT HOW LIFE WORKS.